Hello all. I am in week 36 of my pregnancy, and I am large, tired, and cranky. Not much longer to go.
And I have to confess. I have not been diligently living a low waste lifestyle.
I have been too tired to making yogurt, and resorted to buying it in a plastic tub.
My dryer is running. It is cold a damp and I took the easy route.
I have not made the 14 mile trek to the bulk foods store. We are eating cereal out of a box* and almonds in a plastic bag.
*(The box is cardboard, and the bag is wax paper. I reuse the wax bag for other things around the kitchen, and the cardboard gets recycled).
I feel like a failure. I am upset with myself. But, I am trying not to drag myself down with guilt and showing myself a little grace.
This stage of life isn't forever, and I am trying to do what I can at any given moment.
Hi Katie, I know how you feel, but really, you and your family lifestyle are the least of the planet's worries! Perfection is never an option, mindfulness is, and you are certainly that. All the best for those last, slow, huge, tired weeks!
ReplyDeleteThanks Jo. I appreciate your comment. These last few weeks are a bit difficult. You should see me trying to tie my shoes :) But I see you have 4 youngsters, so it looks like you have been in this stage before.
DeleteYour slacking is better than most people's best. Hang in there and hope you are back to your old self soon!
ReplyDeleteThank you! I try to remember we all have funks where we just can't do what we normally do. Then I try not to get as angry at other people for their shortcomings. Who knows what's going on in their lives.
DeleteI hope you don't beat yourself up over this as you're right, you're not in this stage forever. We're never in the stage we're in forever, and we might as well enjoy it. Guilt is a waste of your emotions. I bet you're getting excited!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Tammy! Guilt is definitely a waste of our emotions. I am doing a lot of letting go of "guilt". Rather than feel guilty, I try to focus on doing better next time.
Deleterest assured Katie, you're not the only one! I have days where I'm in a funk about trying to be zero waste and eat healthy and exercise, and do well at work, and be a good human. It can get to be too much! Oh a baby is coming, so exciting!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteYes, to all of the above. I am trying to be compassionate to others and myself.
DeleteKatie!!!!! Beating up on yourself is SUCH a waste of energy! We all have plenty of "sins" to confess, and that's what keeps us interesting. Here's a post I did, with mine, some time ago: http://myjourneytoithaca.wordpress.com/2013/03/12/confession-of-sins/ .
ReplyDeleteI read your post. We all have our vices right? I try to remember when I judge other people, that I have no idea what is going on in their lives, and who I am to judge their choices? I am by far from perfect. Thank you for the encouragement.
DeleteKatie, it has been years since I was pregnant, but I do remember how at the end I had very little energy left for anything but the basic chores. Don't beat yourself up about this, take the time to rest right now. It might help to remind yourself that just being conscious of your choices is more than most people do. You already re-use what you can and recycle the rest. So don't beat yourself up!
ReplyDeleteI am a roller coaster of emotions, and I think it must just be hormones. It is hard to not constantly look at the big picture and feel despair, but I am trying to remind myself feeling depressed about the state of things does nothing but make me feel sad. Thank you for your kind words. I think being conscious is the first step towards making a difference.
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